Let Me Go

I work hard

But I’m burning out

Like a flickering candle flame

Nothing you can do or say

Will make me want to stay

Because as soon as the best opportunity arises,

I’m setting the sun on this chapter

In sickness and in pain

In worsening mental health

Whenever I think I’m getting better.

Ripped out heart

Squandered days of my life

Almost broken soul

Worked and used to the bone

I’m grateful

And full of resentment

Two things can be true at the same time.

I’m stable

In every unstable way

Exhausted

And running on impure adrenaline

They don’t care in the slightest

The hypocrisy jumps out

Every time you turn a corner

Like a decaying haunted house

dream-in-hearts:

Summer

Trying to keep up with all of these high expectations
While telling them to go away
Dressing up and stripping down
Fading youth as time goes by
But we desperately hold on
Like hanging off the edge of a cliff
Sweet summer child walking through hellfire

Told that I can be anything I want to be
While what I want keeps getting pulled out of reach
Flowers in my hair
The petals wilting and blooming
Ice around my heart
Melting and refreezing
Mother Nature, the biggest natural disaster

Often, I just want to scream
But wouldn’t want to be considered crazy
Keeping the patience of a saint
And a smile on my face
While inside me, it’s Pompeii
If I give up, I’m a failure
If I keep trying, then I’m trying too hard

When the sun is out,
I’m both glowing and burning out
On my knees or my back in the dark
In pleasure or pain
Wet between my hips or tears falling from my eyes
Like summer rain